Lets just say it wasn’t what I had thought , but when is it ever ? It is truly always about the journey.
So this is the first post I have written in a very long time. ( But not published, Looking for Directions was written after this)
It wasn’t until I reopened the blog a few days ago and reread my entries and most importantly the date of my last post that the eureka moment happened.
In August 2017 I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis (MS). My last post was November of that year, and I had already written it, it was just a matter of publishing it, so I did.
What I did next is a blur
I was told what it was, MS. Small bit of back round info, for years I had been prodded and tested and tested some more. Nothing had given any real answers for why I was always in pain. This is Part of why I started the search for the missing Yin. My amazing acupuncturist Alex did so much for me, and in fact had always suspected that I had MS or something like it. He started me on the journey which lead me to writing this blog. But I digress, I felt release and relief to have an answer, being told there is nothing wrong with you for years, really does lead one to doubt ones self.
So in many ways I was happy. Terrified but happy. I started DMD’s 2 days later. I really didn’t have a fucking clue what was going on, I just trusted the Doctors.
We were scared about what was happening, but the support from my families was and is amazing. I found myself one month later meeting a women who was living pretty much symptom free. She was traveling the other road from me. She had a holistic Doctor, while I was on the more typical road. I sat in the stunning surroundings of Hospital Sant Pau having coffee listening to her journey.
It was wonderful and inspiring but I wasn’t ready to go down that road. I will write about her story in a different blog, as there is a lot of info. Over the following period of time, other warriors came my way and shared their stories. I took it all in. But to very honest it was all so very overwhelming.
The one thing I did take away from all the wonderful ladies I communicated with face to face, online and over the phone, was that each one of our journeys are different. So my take away was that I had to find my own way through the fog, but that I wasn’t alone.
I had to do this in my own time, I needed to be ready. In some way that brought me some comfort. This leads into my last blog Directions, which I hope you read. Especially now I welcome feed back.